I Just Want to FOCUS again

I want to be able to do something. Instead of attempting and then crying. I am tired of this hole.

I am just tired.

I just want to hide.

I just am just tired of feeling depressed all the freaking time now.


Last night I had a brilliant phone conversation and it was nice. I felt happy. It was good to talk to you again with feeling.

It was like feeling life in my veins again and I felt powerful.

And then we ended the chat and I took a breath and the process of the abyss started all over again.


I want to just......fuck.....i just want to feel alive.

~The Silly Wanderer~